Sunday, 09 September 2007

  • Ergh. I keep having the warehouse dream.

    To explain: in the warehouse dream, I'm bagging grass seed in my dad's warehouse, and for some reason I just can't keep up, and I fall further and further and further behind until I wake up. It's frustrating, and I spend my whole dream trying desperately to catch up, and getting nowhere. And then, to quote a really lame joke, I wake up exhausted. I seriously do.

    Totally different topic: am I the only person who doesn't especially enjoy church services? Keep in mind, this isn't a knock on anyone in my church who's reading this. But that said, I go to church Sunday after Sunday, and come away wondering what in the world I was doing there. And it's implied that I should “come away blessed” after every single service.

    I go, I sing the songs, sit in the pew and listen to the preacher . Generally, I sing nothing that I haven't sung 100 times already, and hear nothing that I haven't heard plenty of times already, in a version of the Bible that was made nearly 400 years and is hard to understand. And I walk out afterwards exactly the same as when I walked in. Sunday after Sunday, week in, week out, nothing changes (usually).

    Why?

    And more to the point, what should be done? Should I:
        Grit my teeth, go anyway, and hope that it gets better eventually?
        Try to find a church where I do indeed “come away blessed” every Sunday?
        Something else?

    Without any cliches, what say you, my loyal readers?

    **edit** One thing here quick.  Just for Mom's peace of mind and so that she doesn't have concerned older people questioning her about the state of my soul,* what I wrote isn't always true.  There's exceptions to everything, this included.  And also, what I'm talking about here is the preaching/congregational singing aspect.  I'm not talking about Sunday school, youth functions, or anything like that.

    *Which is what apparently happened after I wrote this.

Comments (8)

  • Aimers_2_U
    i sometimes have or sometimes have been tempted to not enjoy the church service. i once heard an interesting thought on this though. why do we go to church? i think today's view is you go to church to be filled (as you mentioned) and to feel good when you leave. it's like we go to church to get fueled up for the week and when that doesn't seem to happen we think somethings wrong. i ask the question again. why do we go to church? is it not to glorify God and praise Him??? is it not to give, give, give of ourselves in holy worship? in that sense i don't think it would matter how we "feel" as long as we know we have worshiped our God with a pure heart and no selfish desires. Now let me add one thing. I believe when we do the above, God will bless us and will encourage us through His word, the message the preacher is sharing, singing, etc., etc. So in the end perhaps you do get filled. but i don't think that is the basis you should have for attending one church or another. hhhhmmmm. these are just some thoughts. please let me know what you think. and i don't take credit for the main point either. just replaying it somewhat as i heard it.
  • brilliantvapor
    I don't know.  Really.  I've found myself in the same place at points.  And I guess I didn't figure it out, or I could tell you what I found.  *shrug*  I'm still at the same church.  I don't see myself leaving too soon, because I know that my motives would be so mixed that I'm not even sure what I would find if I tried to detangle them.  And I like the company of those I've known since I was three years old.  But since I cannot address your central question very well, I will say this: you have all my sympathy in being under the scrutiny of those who refusue to allow you to work out your questions in your own way without having the state of your eternal soul questioned.  It's a shame and then some.   
  • rightofleft
    Church...ah that sacred place that we walk away from just as dysfunctional as we were when we walked in.  We expect church to change us as if it has some magical power.  We go expecting to get.  To walk away with something. Maybe we are looking at it all wrong. Maybe we are to be there to give.  To bless others.  To bless Him.  Or maybe we are just there to be loved by him.  Maybe it is just a safe place to hide once a week from the insanity of out daily lives.  I've been going to church for 40 plus years and sometimes I walk away blessed...and sometimes I just walk away...and there is no sin in that.  Sometimes we feel like something didn't click it we didn't feel what everyone else professed to feel...but maybe it just wasn't our turn...or our month...or our year. I have went through times in my life where I felt close to God, close to his heart...and time that I felt distant, but regardless I knew He was there and that He was a constant...I have attended small churches where you knew everyone as well as your own family, and churches that you knew only a handful of people casually. Some of the best churches I have been to weren't churches at all.  They had no preacher, no Sunday school, no two opening songs, no rousing message.  No... some of the most powerful messages have been the wind in the trees on a mountain trail...or the water of a mountain stream cascading over granite rocks...or a golf ball struck sweetly to the middle of the fairway...so whatever church you attend... when you do walk away...realize that He..walks with you.
  • Raisown

    Once again thank you for your honesty!  I suspect that many of those folks that equate honestly working out your salvation with an endangered soul are so deep in their rut of religious tradition that it never occurs to them that you are seeking something that they too could use

    To answer your question, you need to know what God wants you to do.  Are you in the church where HE wants you?  Boredom really isn't an indicator that you are in need of a new church.  Also how do you prepare yourself for church?  Are you like alot of us rushing out he door to skid into Sunday School just as the opening prayer reaches the "Amen"?  If so, can you rework your schedule so that You can have a time of worship BEFORE you leave home?  I've read articles about beginning preparation for Sunday on Saturday night.  Some of the components were practicle, like be sure all the clothes you want to wear are clean and ready to go.  Some ideas were more along the lines of spending time focusing on God.  Praising Him for WHO HE IS!  No personal pronouns.  Just God you are_____.  And fill in the blank with as many of His attributes as you can come up with in 5 minutes or so.

    Then at church, can you stop and think about even one of the songs.  What inspired the writer of the lyrics?  What message is the song trying to convey?   Do you take note s on the sermon?  Doing that really helped me get alot more out of the service.  As for the 400 yr old, hard to understand  translation of the Bible, can you bring a newer translation with you and re-read the scripture in that?   I know God never changes, but language does.  Remember that the KJV was an attempt to put the Bible into the language that people spoke, not to create THE translation for the rest of time.

    Thanks for sharing your journey with us

    Prayers

    Rai

  • Raisown
    p.s.  Perhape your dream and your feelings about church  are related.
  • TheSnobbit
    It is not usually the church's problem.
  • anonymous
    Where does Jesus fit in my life? (Alternate I: Where do I fit in Jesus' life? Alternate II: Where does Jesus' life fit in me?)

    That's an frightfully practical question for me. (Ditto to the alternates.)

    I suspect it (and they) may be for you as well.

    Disclaimer: I've been wrong before.
  • qwertle

    not in the mood to get into what you said in your post, although it was some food for thought.

    i'm tagging you.

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